first day of work at the chandler location today… weirdly nervous :o(

i hope my co-workers are friendly and nice

i hope they like me

eep

also, EFF U YOU STUPID CUTE LITTLE IDIOTFACE

stop making me like and hate you at the same time, i can’t handle this

first real shift tomorrow at the gelato spot! and victoria’s secret called me for an interview~ scheduled that for next thursday. basically did a mini phone interview with the girl i talked to and she was super positive and told me she didn’t see any reason that i wouldn’t get the job… i really can’t get over the fact that i might soon be able to say that i work for VS asdjh/’;ldjfkslsdfj

crying

man, i have some deep-seated insecurities and trust issues

i actually didn’t know that about myself until recently

eff

why do i feel so shitty so often. i just had a sudden bout of unhappiness/disappointment and then immediately stuffed my face with gummy worms and german chocolate

healthy coping mechanisms

at least my make-up looks good today

is it weird that i really want to go back to school…?

i’m going a little stir crazy being stuck at home. i miss doing stuff and seeing my friends every day and i want to go out and have fun and meet boys and get a boyfriend and ahhasdhgvfdkjlkk;

i need a job

and a boyfriend, before i get old and not hot i mean seriously- all this beautiful lingerie i buy is not gonna look good forever haaahaha yeah idk what i’m doing with my life, i feel weird today

get out of my head omg